So, kind of for myself, just plans. Like a checklist.

For the Month of June:
-----Today To Friday
----------[]See if I can get a 3 Month Subscription on here.
----------[]Comment on some of the 70 deviations notices.
----------[x]Finish Drawing Sasabi character reference sheet.(will upload later)
----------Start Drawing:
---------------[x]A Better I.D.
---------------[]B-day Gifts
---------------[]Other Various Gifts
---------------[x]More Character Refs
---------------[]Itachi.
-----------[x]And Clean my room.
-----For the Rest of June:
----------[]Open up Commisions, maybe?
----------[]Buy that laptop.
----------[]Submit at least 20 deviations by the 30th.(not likely.)
----------[]Start that huge project.

For the rest of the year:
-----[]Find a Second Job.
-----[]Take the ACT all times it is offered.
-----[]Apply for Longview Community College for Fall '09.
-----[]Learn the basics for the Guitar.
-----[X]Play Hard mode in Guitar Hero III
-----[]Buy a car that can get me point A to point B.
-----[]Sew those things I owe peeps.

If I think of anything else, I'll add 'em.
Probably will get that 3 Month Subscription today.. so I want to make my journal look pretty when it happens.

I feel like I need to confess this somewhere. Honestly.
I mean, the real reason I stopped hanging with my friends and getting online was because I let love come before everything else. I spent so many hours with the one I loved, I literally began to push everything and everyone away from me.
I felt like I needed nothing else to live except the guy I fell for. Everything I did was with him and for him. He took up every moment in time from me.
I forgot friends, events, and even family traditions. I forgot my own family member's birthdays! I wasn't obsessed. I loved him more than anything. I did and I never wanted it to end. He was my first love and he may be my last love. I don't think I'll ever find such a connection again.
I just feel so bad I abandoned so many people just for him. I feel like a horrible friend and everything.
I should have never did such a thing. I could have had both, but I, being so pathetic, chose a greedy, selfish path.
I'm not asking for pity or forgiveness. I just want everyone to know what happened to me.
I've changed so much in the last year to the point where I am a different person now. I'm not whom I used to be. It's insane how much I have changed.
I've lost myself in my own head with things. I wonder what good has come out of the love I felt. I just don't know anymore sometimes.
The world has never felt this way to me before, ever since his death. Things are weird and surreal now.
And the future I looked forwar to seems like a blurred vision to me. As if it won't happen.
It's a crazy thing as to what love can do to us. It hurts a lot and I don't think this is a pain that will ever die for me.
My first love, in all of my life, just gone.
Now, I don't know what to do with my life.

I finally started drawing again!
It's really a relief. I've been wanting to draw something for soo long and now I'm free from that block.
But neh... the only reason I have made it online right now is because I got sick so I dont have to go to work tomorrow.
I'm lazy...
And it's 3:42 am... so I'd better go to bed.
I'm going to try and pop online tomorrow and catch up on stuff, but that depends on how I feel.

Yeah, plans changed.
Been extremely busy. Just graduated and all, so now I've got to figure out what to do with my life.
But someday, I promise to get on here for hours to upload and catch up on things!
Right now, I've got to finish painting something, so I'll show up eventually.

as soon as this week ends.
I have many projects due this week. I've had atleast one due every day this week so far and I will have two more to turn in tomorrow and Friday.
Don't have much time to be on the internet right now because of school.
Hey, next week's my last week as a senior in high school and I'm free till I go to college.
I will have fun getting on my feet soon.
Oh, and I do actually have pics I just drew and need to upload.
I will comment and check everything out probably Sunday since I have prom to attend Saturday.

Fare well!
Good luck and good night! (see if anyone knows where that quote is from.)